AWickedShade

You ask me why Why do I feel distant Why do I feel so cold Why don’t our hearts beat as one anymore You feel confused, hurt You feel overwhelmed, dizzy You touch my face, once, twice You kiss my lips three times And a single tear slides down your cheek You wish to ask more But your voice breaks As another tear rolls on your smooth face You call my name, you search for love My love, for you My dream, for us Your face pale and your eyes red You search, desperate for my heart What heart? No. There’s a black void inside my empty chest My heart long since ripped apart Since the day you left Since the day I died You look at me, dee

You’re the butterflies in my stomach You’re the harsh beating of my heart You’re my everyday morning coffee You’re the shortness of breath from excitement You’re the sweat dripping down my neck You’re the kisses on my rib cage You’re the arch of my back And the tremble of my hands You’re my lonely night time smoke You’re a shot of Vodka when I'm broken You’re my high when I'm low You get me numb and you get me drunk Numb from your touch Drunk on your lips And high on your voice You’re my suicide note You’re the gun barrel in my mouth You’re the noos

I look at you looking at me I can see why can't you see? The Dark soul hiding in your chest Yet carrying a smile like a golden crest The eyes that stabs through my heart The wicked smile that hunts my night Crying in bed Pretending to be fine Hand in hand... Your eyes on mine Sweet like honey Bitter like wine... Looking through a mirror I'm a false divine... The bible I hold and I sing it with thrill But in the truth I'm dancing with the devil The blood on your hands The knife in my arms The screams I enjoyed For the guilt that i cried For the pain in my soul The itch in my heart The stain on my life The blood on my knife Crying in bed Pr

I'm caught in a downfall and I cannot recover all I needed was love all I needed was hope where have you been? when I needed you most... where have you been? when I fell when I crashed when I died... I'm fading... and no fire can light my darkness no amount of love cannot fix what's already broken it's all too little too late I'm dying... and you don't even care... perhaps it was a mistake letting you go perhaps I lied perhaps I loved you endlessly perhaps I'm selfish.... perhaps.... I'm out of words out of pleas out of tears... and I love you, even after I let you go stupidly....without thought I'm dying....not much time left happiness..

Your eyes Dark, mysterious, intense and I feel myself enchanted When you lock your eyes with mine... Unable to look away As if I have my soul My life, my past, My lies... Bare in front of your eyes your lips Soft, Gentle, promising and I feel myself bewitched When you press them on mine Unable to break the kiss, to pull away, Melting in the kiss... As if my mind, my heart, my body, My soul.... Is on fire by a simple touch of your precious lips... your hands so strong, so demanding but so full of love And I feel myself melting Unable to fight, to push you back As your hands take hold of mine As you press me to the wall As you take me in you

Slowly, dark flakes of fear Slides down my eyes, like a single tear Glassy blooms made out of ice My heart shattered, once, twice, thrice The cruel dance, of the Gypsy time My love for you, an unforgiving crime A sin, corrupt, dark as your hair Cold, blue, just as your eyes A castle of loss, made out of you A cracked hope, made out of loss A silent cry, made out of hope A flaming pain, made out of cries I’m drowning so fast, in my ocean of fears The flames of the wind, the rain of my tears I’m burning my soul, in the fire of my past The cracks of my heart, your hope doesn't last I’m crying alone, in my broken temple The

too naive to think better too shy to show my face too easy to fall too hard to forget you wished me to change I changed...and I changed all for you you used to love this change why hate it now? now that the other shoe has dropped now that I'm bold enough to speak my mind to show my hurt, my anger why now? I am what you made of me so don't run stay here and face it love it like you used to love I'm your creation after all aren't fathers supposed to love all their children? come on, face me.... face this cold hearted monster you made love this mutated thing you built full of pent up emotion full of hurt full of anger but also full of love,

I got to swallow my sorrows Cause there are no more tears to fall I got to slip my mask on, mask of indifference… While I still drown inside… I wish I didn't feel anything… Cause your feelings are long gone And your heart is not mine anymore I got distant a bit, yes But you pulled away fast Crashed all the bridges between And set fire to the train The train of my heart destined to fall To break, to burn… Now I’m standing on the side of the cliff With you on the other side Looking with unseeing eyes Crying with unseen tears Screaming with unheard voice The black void under my feet Dark, deep, horrendous With no b

Us, our love Fire, Hungry, flaming Holding us in her burning embrace We, her fuel And we burn, unknowing… Me, my life A kiss, Burning, taking my soul away Leaving nothing But you, carved in my heart… You, your shoulders A cornerstone, Taking my pain away Believing for a moment That everything is alright… Me, my smile Joy, Warming my heart Filling me with hope Fragile, shimmering… You, your heart Fear, Freezing you to the bones Taking away All we had, little by little… Me, my tears Sorrow, Drowning me in my heart Unbelieving You’re going, forever now… You, your words Doubt, Filling everything, t

perhaps you'd understand one day why I love you even with no hope or perhaps my heart would stop beating and relieve me of this pain that I take in with every breath this love would stop coursing through my veins. this feeling....it's poison yet I continue to swallow it and I can't ever blame you just love you unconditionally and I'm tired tired of you playing mind games tired of me giving in tired of everything my soul is broken, beyond repair and this love keeps it in one piece yet tears it apart even more and I'm eternally sad when there is no hope and there has never been perhaps we never meant to be perhaps it's just too late to look for